Really?

  Wow, you really believe that the one girl who would do anything in this whole entire world, and I mean ANYTHING, would really just play you like that? And then, you run off telling her best friend how much you love her, and how much you've changed, just so you could be with her.
  No, not the girl who would give everything away for just one last day with you, but for the girl who sees you as the most terrible, person on the planet. 
 I LOVE YOU. 
  Okay? Get that through your thick ass fucking head. I would rather die than hurt you. But, no. What do I even mean to you? I'm just the girl you call on a late night when you don't wanna drink alone. The girl you know would just sit there and listen to you cry about how much you love someone else, even though it kills me inside. I'm just the girl you know will always be there no matter how many times you break my heart, or leave me hanging. I've been here for you since I met you. Love at first sight. I never believed in it until I met you. The day I watched you walk over to the truck and look me square in the hi, and introduce yourself. That's when i fell for you. 
 And it just got worse as time went on, we hung out all the time. I saw you almost everyday. Then you and her got together, 7-19-11. I couldn't forget that date even if I wanted to, which I do. It killed me, watching you fall so madly in love with her, while I just sit back and watch with a hellish fire burning in my heart and soul for you. Did I try to interfere to have you as my own? God no, never, I couldn't hurt two of my greatest friends. 
  Then time went on, y'all eventually broke up. The greatest relief was lifted off my shoulders, yet, I still had to sit back and watch her cry over you, day and night. Damn, you don't know what you had. More time went on still, and we all slowly grew apart, until one day, you realized you wanted to be with my other best friend. Haha, I still had a fiery passion for you, that was getting harder and harder to resist. yet, once again I strayed away so my friends would be happy. The day y'all got engaged, wow... I can't even explain how hot the fire in my heart got. it was like I was trapped in an incinerator. Everything inside me burned, the tears of pain, my mind from working so hard to figure out what had really just happened. And then it happened again, I watched y'all slowly grow apart,and eventually she left you for another man. Yeah, I know how bad it hurt you. Trust me, I know. Watching the person you're so deeply in love with be with someone else. I know that fucked up feeling all too well. Whether they knew it or not, I still talked to you. Why? Because I loved you and I couldn't just watch you fall into the quicksand pit named depression, with no hopes of someone pulling you out. So I was there, day, night. Any time of the day, and at all times throughout the night. I barely slept, just so I could talk to you. And fuck if you don't know the hell I went through when they found out I was still talking to you. Man, I never lived that down. And still to this day I catch the phrases, "Oh you don't need dumb fuck Troy," or, "Really Kayla, you're still friends with his punk ass," and, here's my favorite, "Let me find out you're still talking to that mother fucker." 
  But you know what I did? I brushed that shit off my shoulders and moved on, I'm tired of hiding what I feel for you. I wish I could shout it from every roof top in the world. I don't care who knows anymore. You've saved my life, you've listened to me cry, and you've held me while I cried myself to sleep in your arms. 
  I can't live without you in my life, I wish I could explain exactly what it does to me. But, that's impossible.
   Without you in my life; I can't feel, literally, I could run myself head long into a brick wall goes 100 miles an hour and not feel a thing. I can't sleep, I stay up all night thinking of ways I could get you to realize, that if you were to ever be with me, you wouldn't have to worry about me leaving you for someone else, you wouldn't have to worry about, getting played, or fucked over. You would have all of me, my heart, my soul, my mind, and my body. But, I guess the day you realize that, will be the day hell freezes over. Because, the one girl who cares about you the most in this world besides your family, could never be anything more than just a friend to you. So, I'll go on with my life. Loving you, helping you, listening to you, trying everything I can to make you see how absolutely wonderful of a man you are. While you run around, letting yourself get hurt by people that could give less than two shits about you.
  Just know, when you're ready; I'll always be here. Waiting for you to realize just how much you mean to me. Waiting to show you, how you're really supposed to be treated. I'll love you until the day and I die, and even after that I swear I'll find a way to continue loving you. You're the greatest thing that ever happened to me, and I will never give up on you damnit. Never.

 I fucking love you. I always have. I always will.